anxiety or panic
this post in the aspie group about a girl that got cats but was freaked out by them weeing into places and wasnt what she expected them to be
I think I understand how you feel - that you can't move and your body is your prison because everything you do and every time you move you feel like the germs are coming to you and getting stuck on you and it just gets worse and worse? And then added to that the disappointment that things didn't work out the way you wanted them to?
Sorry if that doesn't describe it well.. I can get like that in environments where I think they are not clean (even though they probably are) and if it gets worse I practically can't move and like a ongoing panic attack that doesn't settle and my body just feels really disgusting and irritated? (I'm using more words but none of them do the feeling any justice actually.. it is just HORRIBLE)
Since you cannot get out of this situation at this very moment the only possible way to get out of this if you emotionally "shut off" your Aspergers. So your body will still feel gross while you are still functioning like a person, you need to push through it. When I get to that stage and I know I cannot leave the situation I allow my body to feel what it feels - gross/irritated/panicky/anxious (my anxiety feels like the skin is being pulled off my bones whilst being burnt, its rather painful) - but keep going. It will mellow down when you feel safer.
(...)
Now... I KNOW you are scared and upset and can't move and don't want to move and everything is disgusting. You cannot avoid this situation unless you give away the cats so you can make a choice now of keeping them or giving them away. Remember that cats are basically Aspies but they are not AWARE of themselves - you are very aware of yourself (you recognize your emotions and when you think about it you know why you feel the way you do) which cats are not, you have to do the thinking for them and "outsmart" their behaviour. You need a lot of patience and a LOT of strength. But I know you have that strength in you somewhere to fight yourself, I hope you can find it. We are all here in any case and we certainly will not judge you if you choose to take the safe route and give the cats away.
something i wrote just now...
okay so... the reason why we need to do this is because there is NO WAY we can get AROUND the problem (in my visual thinking its a huge pond) so we MUST step through it even if its absolutely terrifying. Whilst walking through it is will feel really fucking terrible and awful but since it's the only way to get it done you have got to get pushing and walking to get to the other side of the pond (whatever is there you desire).
it requires courage tod o this
I think I understand how you feel - that you can't move and your body is your prison because everything you do and every time you move you feel like the germs are coming to you and getting stuck on you and it just gets worse and worse? And then added to that the disappointment that things didn't work out the way you wanted them to?
Sorry if that doesn't describe it well.. I can get like that in environments where I think they are not clean (even though they probably are) and if it gets worse I practically can't move and like a ongoing panic attack that doesn't settle and my body just feels really disgusting and irritated? (I'm using more words but none of them do the feeling any justice actually.. it is just HORRIBLE)
Since you cannot get out of this situation at this very moment the only possible way to get out of this if you emotionally "shut off" your Aspergers. So your body will still feel gross while you are still functioning like a person, you need to push through it. When I get to that stage and I know I cannot leave the situation I allow my body to feel what it feels - gross/irritated/panicky/anxious (my anxiety feels like the skin is being pulled off my bones whilst being burnt, its rather painful) - but keep going. It will mellow down when you feel safer.
(...)
Now... I KNOW you are scared and upset and can't move and don't want to move and everything is disgusting. You cannot avoid this situation unless you give away the cats so you can make a choice now of keeping them or giving them away. Remember that cats are basically Aspies but they are not AWARE of themselves - you are very aware of yourself (you recognize your emotions and when you think about it you know why you feel the way you do) which cats are not, you have to do the thinking for them and "outsmart" their behaviour. You need a lot of patience and a LOT of strength. But I know you have that strength in you somewhere to fight yourself, I hope you can find it. We are all here in any case and we certainly will not judge you if you choose to take the safe route and give the cats away.
something i wrote just now...
okay so... the reason why we need to do this is because there is NO WAY we can get AROUND the problem (in my visual thinking its a huge pond) so we MUST step through it even if its absolutely terrifying. Whilst walking through it is will feel really fucking terrible and awful but since it's the only way to get it done you have got to get pushing and walking to get to the other side of the pond (whatever is there you desire).
it requires courage tod o this
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